When energy (emotions and feelings) directs our participation, and we present as personality the self definitions that define our energy – then we are showing the world exactly how we can be manipulated through using words and pictures that will interplay with our self definitions to trigger the desired energy the manipulator requires us to feel, so that we will do what the manipulator wants us to do.
We call this energy our individuality. That is the name the manipulators gave it so we won’t see we are being manipulated.
To stop being an energy slave, we must become the directive principle of ourselves, here in every moment, constant, stable, still waters within and stop energy as the ‘storm-system’ we’ve allowed to push us around. If we do not stop this energy, we simply remain a perfect slave to those who profit from our energetic self interest – ignoring all abuse while we consume the Earth to fulfill our energetic individuality.
We’ve been brainwashed by consumerism, by advertisements, by movies, by television, by psychology, to believe that self expression is defined by the expression, the movement of energy within ourselves as feelings, as emotions. But if this energy can be manipulated, triggered by a word, a picture, if we are directed by a requirement to be stimulated and moved through the ups and downs of feelings and emotions – how can we call that self expression? How can we call that real individuality?
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when a feeling arises within me, triggered by a thought, a picture, a word, a person, and I don’t even see and understand exactly where and how and why that feeling arose, that I am ‘expressing myself’ when I allow myself to be moved by this feeling to participate in my world — instead of seeing and realizing that self expression would be me, here, as the totality of myself, moving myself in expressing myself — where my expression is one and equal to who I am — not a feeling that ‘appears’ within me that has been stimulated, triggered by ‘something’ — because me being moved by energy actually indicates that I have separated myself from self expression, where energy moves me, instead of me moving me, me expressing me
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and realize that when I am ‘taken over’ by an emotional or feeling experience, I am actually being possessed by energy that speaks and moves and participates on my behalf
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that other people can ‘make me feel’ something, instead of seeing and realizing that my feelings and emotions exist in me, and are based on my own ideas, my own definitions of myself and others, my own judgments of myself and others, my own beliefs of and about myself and others, and therefore, I am the one who is creating, accepting and allowing feelings and emotions to exist in me – and in believing that ‘someone makes me feel something’, I am actually separating myself from what I am accepting and allowing inside myself, placing responsibility for myself and my experience outside of myself unto others, and that is why, when someone says or does something that triggers an unpleasant emotional experience inside myself, I then project blame unto another, seeing another as the ‘reason’ I experienced the emotion, instead of seeing that I experienced the emotion because of my own accepted and allowed ideas, judgments, beliefs, definitions- my self programming that my feelings and emotions are based on.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame others for the emotions I experience inside myself, in believing that another’s words and actions actually ‘created my emotional experience’ — and in this, I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to then speak and act with another from the starting point of manipulating them in trying to get them to ‘say and do things’ to make me ‘feel better’, in believing that another can actually ‘make me feel better’ — instead of seeing and realizing that, just as with my emotions, my feelings are also based on my own accepted and allowed ideas, judgments, beliefs, definitions of and about myself, others and my world — and so in ‘getting someone to make me feel better’, I am again placing responsibility for what I experience in myself, outside of myself unto others, where I am accepting and allowing myself to be dependent on others to ‘say and do’ things to trigger and maintain the feelings I like, and to not ‘say and do things’ that will trigger emotions that I do not like — and thus wherever I have established relationships with others based on each of us saying and doing things from the starting point of expecting and requiring each other to say and do things according to ‘what I want to feel’, and ‘what I don’t want to feel’ — I am in a relationship based on manipulation, and of not taking responsibility for myself, not taking responsibility for what I experience inside myself, not taking responsibility for my own accepted and allowed ideas, beliefs, definitions, judgments, that my feelings and emotions are based on
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that in accepting and allowing myself to be directed and controlled by energetic possessions called ‘feelings and emotions’, that I am allowing myself to be able to be manipulated by others – in accepting myself to place responsibility for my feelings and emotions outside of myself, projected unto others, I am allowing myself to be able to be manipulated by the words and actions of others — and within this I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and realize that the whole time I am actually only manipulating myself — another is not actually able to manipulate me, because I am the one who is accepting and allowing myself to be directed and controlled by feelings and emotions
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the only reason I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be directed by feelings and emotions, is because I have not seen and understood how and where and why my feelings and emotions exist within me – I am not equal to my feelings and emotions, I have accepted and allowed myself to be less than my feelings and emotions, because I have accepted and allowed myself to simply believe that ‘this energetic experience inside me is who I am’ — I have defined myself as feelings and emotions, and have not actually stood equal with my feelings and emotions, through understanding what they are based on — because, if I uncover and understand exactly what ideas, beliefs, judgments, definitions my feelings and emotions are based on — then I am no longer less than my feelings and emotions, and thus I can direct my inner experience in direct self awareness of what I am accepting and allowing to exist in me
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to simply accept my feelings and emotions, simply accept the energetic experience, and not investigate where it is coming from, and what it is based on — because, if I were to see and understand exactly what my feelings and emotions are based on, if I took responsibility for my feelings and emotions, then I could no longer blame others for how I feel and what I experience inside myself
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking self responsibility for all that exists inside myself, all that I experience inside myself, because then I would have to stop accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to being stimulated ‘by others’, and if I am no longer living and participating from the starting point of looking for someone and something to ‘stimulate feelings in me’, then – what will I do? How will I live?
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that if I were to take responsibility for all that exists inside me, for my feelings and emotions, that I would have to actually learn to live, learn to support myself from the starting point of taking self responsibility in self honesty in every moment – I could no longer depend on others to move me, to stimulate me — I would have to actually move myself as the directive principle of myself in every moment, instead of simply accepting and allowing myself to ‘go with the flow’ of the ups and downs of my feelings and emotions
Walking my process of taking responsibility for all that exists inside me, a process of self honesty, self forgiveness, self investigation, self realization, has been a process of self transformation – where through self honesty and self forgiveness, I’ve transformed myself from a limited robot that is controlled by feelings and emotions that I didn’t understand, and that is able to be manipulated through words and pictures interplaying with my self definitions, to myself here in every moment, applying self honesty in uncovering, investigating, understanding, realizing everything of how and why I am experiencing what I am experiencing within myself, where within actually understanding my inner experience, actually seeing into myself in self honesty and writing myself out to uncover the actual ideas, beliefs, judgments, definitions that my feelings, my emotions, my thoughts, my reactions are based on, I am giving myself back to myself, I am standing equal and one with the totality of myself, with the totality of what I experience within myself — because what I saw and realized as I began writing myself out, was that my entire life before I started walking my process, I had lived in complete unawareness, I had no understanding of where and how my feelings and emotions were being created, I had no awareness of how I was defining myself and others within my own mind — because I was trapped in the experience, trapped in the energy as thoughts, feelings and emotions generated through my conscious, subconscious, and unconscious programming.
I spent my time looking for energetic experiences – trying to feel good, and trying to avoid experiencing reactions and emotions – completely lost within my own mind, within my own feelings and emotions that had power over me because I had no power of understanding – I did not know myself in fact, I only knew the experiences of feelings, emotions, reactions, and thoughts.
With Desteni I Process I’ve developed the skills of self investigation and self realization that in fact are available to each of us, but which we simply have not been aware of, because for generations of time, we’ve simply been passing on our accepted and allowed starting point of believing that our thoughts, feelings, reactions, and emotions are simply ‘human nature’, and that ‘we are not responsible for what exists in us, we are not creating what exists in us’. Well, I’ve proven this to be false, because I’ve proven to myself that I am in fact able to understand what is going on inside myself, how it is being created, and I am able to take responsibility for what exists in me, stop that which was based on self dishonesty, self deception, blame, self manipulation, and projection, and re-create myself in a way where I am actually supporting myself to live and express myself, in a way where I am able to take responsibility in every moment with clarity, with self honesty, with self awareness, with self direction, to walk this life in a way where I am no longer accepting and allowing a world of unawareness, a world of self dishonesty, a world of manipulation and self separation to continue — I am sharing my experience of what I’ve realized, applied, and experienced in my own process, so that you may hear what I am saying and decide if you are ready to take self responsibility, decide if you are ready to stop being a slave to your own experiences, decide if you are ready to stop manipulating and stop being manipulated, decide if you are ready to be the change that must be lived in this world.
Yes, this world must change. And the way it will change is through each of us standing up and deciding to live self honestly, deciding to take self responsibility, deciding to stop fake relationships based on energetically manipulating each other merely to ‘feel good’, while walking in a world that seems too big to change. Well, this world is not too big to change. This world is only as big as ourselves. And when we each change ourselves, then we will have a new world. Obviously, the starting point we’ve been living, is a starting point of self interest, of self defeat, of self limitation, of self separation, of abdicating responsibility for ourselves to the belief that ‘we are who we are because it is our human nature, and if we are to change we must wait for ourselves to evolve, end of story’. Well, we’ve proven that such a starting point only supports the perpetuation of the current world of abuse.
We’ve proven now over decades of time, that when we change our feelings only, when we merely ‘feel’ like we’ve changed, we haven’t in fact. I mean, we haven’t implemented any solution to the current abusive world system where profit is valued above life. If you just look at consumerism, at advertising, at the manipulation tactics of corporations and politicians and religion, you’ll see that it has merely evolved in the way it looks, in the way it sounds, it its presentation, to fit the evolution of of our ‘energetic individuality’, the evolution of our self definitions, our feelings and emotions. We ‘feel like we should be more conscious of the environment’, and so consumerism adapts to this desire, and provides us with products and lifestyles that enable us to feel like we’re ‘living more consciously’. Meanwhile, the actual system itself has not changed at all – the same vast problems of human, animal, and environmental abuse still exist – those making a profit fifty years ago, are making a profit today, using the same strategies of consumerism — they’ve just adapted the products, adapted the vocabulary, adapted the picture, to suit our many varieties and lifestyles of ‘energetic individuality’.
I suggest watching the BBC documentary called ‘The Century of the Self’, as within this four part series, it is explained exactly how the human being has not changed, and how in fact for generations of time, we’ve been defining ourselves according to desires, ideas, ideals, personalities, feelings, emotions, that have been in fact deliberately designed and presented to us through the media – which enables those few making all the profit, to control us through our feelings and emotions and lifestyle desires.
Stop being a robot – investigate Desteni, and investigate the ‘Century of the Self’, and come to terms with the real problem humanity is facing — the problem of our accepted enslavement to the ‘energetic individuality’ — the battery that feeds the current world system of capitalism and profit making, the robot that accepts the system and does whatever it takes to survive as an energetic individual, because it is addicted to the ‘pursuit of happiness’, addicted to ‘feeling good’.
Feeling good has become the most destructive religion on Earth, because when we ‘feel good’ — we ‘feel like everything is okay’ – even when we are completely aware that half the world is in poverty with hundreds and hundreds of millions starving right now.
But obviously just as with a drug trip, this is not based on the reality of what is here — this is based on the individual’s own energetic reality that has come to be valued above considering what is best for all in the actual reality called Earth.
2012 is supposed to be a time of a ‘great shift’. Let 2012 be the year we stop trying to manipulate the world to fit our own energetic, mental individuality of feelings. Let 2012 be the year of self honesty, the year of self realization, the year of self responsibility. I mean, place yourself at the end of 2012, when the world is still the same mess, and no magical change or shift has happened — what will you do? Will you spend the rest of your life looking for the next point of energetic stimulation, trying to feel better, trying to feel more free, participating in the same relationships of energetic manipulation and blame, being pushed around by the ups and downs of feelings and emotions? Will you spend the rest of your life accepting and allowing yourself to be manipulated through your feelings and emotions, your energetic individuality, to remain an obedient slave to the few in this world who use you to make a profit for themselves? Or will you decide it is time to change? When you are ready, we are here to support you to discover for yourself what it is to create yourself as a real individual, here as Life, and stop being a limited energetic individuality that believes it has no power to change this world.